I Am Not Myself These Days

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Fuel presents

I Am Not Myself These Days

Written and performed by Tom Stuart

Adapted from the autobiography by Josh Kilmer-Purcell 

Directed by Nick Bagnall

Designed by Ti Green 

Lighting Design by Guy Hoare.

A shockingly direct and heartbreakingly funny new play about love and self-discovery in the flashy, trashy New York of the 1990s.

Tom Stuart delivers a tour-de-force performance in this mesmerising one man show. Ad man by day and drag queen by night, Josh battles his own alcoholism while desperately trying to make his relationship work with Jack, a high-class rent boy addicted to crack. 

I Am Not Myself These Days is the story of one man's unconventional journey to self-acceptance that resonates far beyond the confines of the story. 


Funded by Arts Council England. Supported by Shoreditch Town Hall

Events at Shoreditch Town Hall 

Martin Firrell: HUNTY CITY
Tuesday 1 – Saturday 12 March
During bar opening times

Described by the Guardian as ‘one of London’s most influential public artists’, Martin Firrell has created an original piece of work which will run alongside I Am Not Myself These Days in The Ditch, celebrating the genius of drag, the LGBT community and Tom Stuart. Titled HUNTY CITY, the piece is an installation which aims to investigate the linguistic and cultural heritage of the LGBTqia community: ‘a lexicon of gay ‘slanguage’ you can dance to’. The project will also have a web space at and will play in The Ditch pre- and post-show.

Bar Aqua
Friday 4, Saturday 5, Friday 11 and Saturday 12 March

After the show descend into the secret underworld of The Ditch and discover our speakeasy-style basement bar for some of the best late night entertainment and tunes in town. Guests include Amy Lamé, Bourgeois & Maurice, Neil Prince, The LipSinkers, Harry Clayton-Wright, Simone Simone, Ruth Less and more. Free entry if you attend I Am Not Myself These Days that evening / £5 if just attending Bar Aqua.

Lois Weaver: Long Table
Tuesday 8 March

After the show join Lois Weaver and fellow audience members for a free-flowing Long Table conversation in the Long Room reflecting on the issues permeating I Am Not Myself These Days. Whilst still reeling from the heady underground of Kilmer-Purcell's '90s New York, you are invited to take a seat at the Table and consider what happens when the party stops.  Free entry if you attend I Am Not Myself These Days that evening.

Reviews from the Edinburgh Fringe 2015

"A brutal story told with energy and compassion." THE STAGE ☆☆☆☆

"A mesmerising show which will smack you in the face and demand your attention." MUMBLE THEATRE ☆☆☆☆☆

"an astonishing, all-consuming performance." FEST

"Stuart is a charismatic presence and a fine actor and storyteller" THE SCOTSMAN

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